I Miss You …

Oh i miss you oh so much. I miss you being my bestfriend. I miss you giving me advice about anything and everything. i miss talking to all night long. I miss having someone there that i knew cared so much about me. It’s been around 2 years that you left my life as someone i knew. & it still hurts.. it kills me because i don’t want my first love back, i want my bestfriend back. I know that because of everything that happened. it will never be like it was. but i want something close to it. Look i’m sorry. I’m so sorry for what i put you through. For all the threats and times that i blamed you for everything. I’m sorry for all my wrongs. I’m sorry. Please just get that through your head. I didn’t want to hurt you. I didn’t want you to become this person because of me. i just … if i had a chance to go back & redo it. i would. I don’t care where life would take me… because hurting you was one of the worst things i could of done.. & i’m sorry. I just want my bestfriend. Oh “OCG” , why did this happened to us.. I guess it was for a reason. I don’t love you but you don’t understand how much love i have for you. & i always will. Always & Forever…. no matter what.. 


(Source: justarejay)